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Admitting that I'm Failing

I don’t usually post much about my work. I also haven’t been posting here as much as I’d like. Those two things are related.

I joined this company in September to manage a team of engineers. That team has a nice variety of experience levels, backgrounds, interests and skills. They cover the full stack and QA. It’s a good group of people. It is bigger than a 2 pizza team but not too bad. The most obvious challenge the team faces is timezones. We are spread from the west coast of North America to Bosnia. I do 1:1s with folks starting at 7 a.m. for me and team meetings at 8. The people outside of North America log off for the day when those are done. It was a struggle to get going with this schedule, but it’s been working. Living somewhere near the middle would be better. Oregon is not that.

In early November there was a plan to shuffle some folks around so I was expecting to add four more engineers to my team starting in January. This is now way more than a 2 pizza team, but still the same set of time zones.

In the middle of December I got an email announcing that I would be managing a team of engineers in India due to some broader org changes. On paper, this made sense. That team is responsible for a core capability and my other team was so far the only consumer.

You know where it doesn’t make sense? Timezones! Those lovely humans are thirteen and a half hours ahead of me most of the year. I can’t be the kind of manager I want to be for a group of people that the only time we can overlap is for a short window of time in the early morning or late at night.

I’m pushing for them to get a manager that lives a whole lot closer. I’m worried people might question my work ethic, but I’m willing to take that risk. I want them to get a manager that can help them grow just as much as I want my evenings back.

Project Hail Mary

Watched: Project Hail Mary ๐Ÿฟ

Various clubs around the area, including the astronomy club, were offered tickets to an advanced screening of this movie. I was really excited to see this and I enjoyed it as much as I hoped I would.

Photo of an IMAX screen inside a movie theater highlighting the movie Project Hail Mary.

Everyone was warned not to record any part of the movie and then people kept standing in the doorway with some little device that they used to scan people, presumably making sure no one was recording? That was a little weird. Separately, this was my first time going to a movie at the Lloyd Center Regal theater. I don’t know of another IMAX theater in Portland with seats that are so comfortable.

Day 3: Firelight

Having firelight be the theme for day 3 of the 12 Days of Winter Wonder was convenient after the power went out at 1 a.m. and didn’t come back until 8 this evening.

This is a work in progress, but it looks cute with the candle light. Would I recommend stitching by candle light? I would not.

Auto-generated description: A piece of cross-stitch embroidery featuring decorative patterns and the alphabet is set on a quilted surface with two lit candles nearby.

Cozy

Day 2 of the 12 Days of Winter Wonder is cozy.

When Ally moved home earlier this year, she came with two cats. (She shares custody of them with her best friend.) Neptune more moved into my lap than into our home, however. While Neptune sleeps in my lap, his brother Beau is often snuggled near my feet under the blanket I drape over myself. When I think of “cozy”, I can’t help but think of the hours spent each day with fuzzballs keeping my warm.

Auto-generated description: A black cat is resting with its head on a purple surface, gazing softly ahead.

Frost

I thought it might be fun to participate with the 12 Days of Winter Wonder photo challenge. Portland hasn’t been below freezing once this fall, so of course the first prompt would be frost.

This photo represents a happier part of a stressful winter day.

Auto-generated description: A branch covered in ice is depicted with a snowy background and other greenery.

Stressful weather

There’s an atmospheric river going through Portland this week. It seemed like the day never started on Monday. Somehow the sun forgot to come out.

I learned we were under a high wind watch as well as a flood watch at just about the same time a huge tree fell in the neighbor’s yard. I’m really hoping this isn’t the start of another windy wet winter. I’m still not over the stress from the big storms two years ago.

I’ll be sleeping in the basement until this is over.

Thanksgiving 2025

Ally is still on the ship off the coast of Georgia so we definitely missed her for Thanksgiving. Sam came up for the long weekend and Matt’s parents came for Thanksgiving dinner. This term for Sam is rather strenuous so he spent most of the weekend either doing homework or sleeping. It’s great to have him home even if I’m just sitting next to him trying not to make noise. Ha!

As usual, I tried to recreate my mom’s apple pie. As usual, it was pretty far removed from the magic she used to create. I realized that this was actually just fine and somehow that let me enjoy the process a little more. It was my best pie yet.

One bit of excitement was getting to meet Sam’s girlfriend, Alex. Sam has a pretty solid track record for choosing good friends so it was no surprise that he’s chosen a lovely person to date as well.

Visiting Stef in Clarkston

Last weekend, I went to visit my sister so we could celebrate her birthday and Guy Fawkes Day together. She lives in Clarkston, Washington which sits alongside Lewiston, ID at the confluence of the Snake and the Clearwater Rivers.

My nephew, as you’d expect, enjoyed the fire.

Auto-generated description: A person is standing by a campfire at night, holding a stick, with the flames and sparks illuminating the scene.

It was great to spend a little time with my sister and get to know her boyfriend a little better. While I was visiting, we helped shuttle one of her friends so that he could spend the day on one of the nearby rivers. This gave us an opportunity to go exploring. We spent some of that time trying to take photos that we actually liked of the fall colors. Her new iPhone did a better job than my not so new Pixel 8 Pro. Trying to get the colors in photos to match what you actually see continues to frustrate me.

Auto-generated description: A serene lake is surrounded by trees with autumn foliage and rocky terrain, reflecting a tranquil landscape.

I put my favorite photos in a collection. Some of them don’t seem terrible.

A scenic road winds alongside a river with hills and trees under a cloudy sky.A railroad lift bridge spans across a calm river surrounded by hills and grassy terrain.A serene lake is surrounded by trees with autumn foliage and rocky terrain, reflecting a tranquil landscape.A serene lake is surrounded by grassy banks and distant hills under a partly cloudy sky.A peaceful riverside scene features autumnal trees with colorful foliage and a calm water reflection.A serene lake is surrounded by autumn trees, with a building visible in the background.A river is surrounded by autumn trees with a backdrop of a town and cloudy sky.A fish is swimming in a shallow stream surrounded by a few leaves and vegetation.A paved pathway runs alongside a calm river with autumn trees and distant hills in the background.A peaceful riverside scene features a solitary bench on a path overlooking calm water, with autumn trees lining the opposite shore.A tree with yellow leaves stands by a reflective body of water, with a distant hillside in the background.

As I’ve mentioned before, the drive through the Columbia River Gorge to get there and back is amazing. It’s hard to comprehend just how much water is moving through there.

Ally's Fun Adventure

I mentioned my daughter having an adventure and then I haven’t had a chance to post about it!

This past Monday morning Ally got a text from a friend asking if there was any way she could be in Norfolk, Virginia within the next 36 hours. The tall ship Lynx was scheduled to sail from Virginia down to Georgia for the winter and needed some additional crew. I dropped Ally off at the airport at 8 o’clock that night (after driving 6 hours home from my sister’s house). When she got on the plane, she didn’t even know how she was going to get from the airport out to the ship. By the time she landed in Atlanta after her first flight, a friend of someone on the ship was arranged to meet Ally at the airport and give her a lift.

She’s having a great time. She’s mostly working at night which means she gets to see the Milky Way and amazing sunrises. So far the ship has made it down to Charleston, South Carolina where they docked ahead of a storm.

Auto-generated description: Tall ship rigging and masts with an American flag waving against a clear blue sky. Auto-generated description: A sailing ship deck is silhouetted against a vibrant sunset over the ocean. Auto-generated description: A serene sunset over a calm body of water with the sun visible just above the horizon. Auto-generated description: A twilight ocean scene features faint noctilucent clouds glowing against a deep blue sky, with a small bright celestial object above.

Aside: I learned of the existence of the word “noctilucent” from the auto-generated description for that last photo.

This is all possible because in the Summer of 2021 Ally signed up for a program called Two Weeks Before the Mast on the Lady Washington. The Lady Washington was built as a replica of one of the first two tall ships that sailed to the Pacific Northwest in 1787. Ally was really excited about it, but when the day came to leave she was so nervous she was in tears. I think she didn’t feel like she knew what was expected of her and if she was up for it. She went anyway. After a week and a half on the ship, they asked her to stay on longer as a paid crew member. My son (he was 16 at the time) went up and joined her for part of the summer too.

Both Ally and Sam have been back a few times.

After mentioning all this to her college advisor Mark, he ended up joining her for two weeks aboard the Lady which led to the two of them traveling up to Canada to meet with members of the Nuu-chah-nulth community to discuss the possibility of doing archaeology at the site where the original Lady Washington stopped for a while in the late 1700s.

Not letting her fear stop her from trying something new has led to such amazing adventures.

All photos in this post were taken by Ally.

Community Building & Vice President Harris

On election night last year, Matt and I went out to dinner. I didn’t want to spend the whole night staring at the TV stressing about what might happen. The texts I kept getting over dinner told me things weren’t going as I had hoped. Shortly after I got home, I got a call from one of the neighbors saying I needed to come over. I spent the rest of the evening with that neighbor sobbing in my arms while her husband stared numbly at his phone across the room and everyone else shouted over each other about all the people that were going to be hurt by the outcome. Community building was on my mind as I walked back across the street late that night.

It’s been a long year.

It’s so much worse than I thought it would be.

Along with three of my neighbors tonight I went to see Vice President Kamala Harris speak in Portland as part of her book tour. My neighbor, the one I held last year, was there to hold my hand when I got overwhelmed. The woman on the other side of me (I hadn’t met her before today) offered me a tissue. Harris encouraged everyone to remember that we’re in this together and to help those being targeted/harmed in our community. Community building is the path forward.

Auto-generated description: A theater marquee brightly lit at night announces A Conversation with Kamala Harris on November 5th at 7:00 PM, with a crowd gathering below. Rukaiyah Adams and Vice President Kamala Harris on stage at Arlene Schnitzer Concert Hall.

View from the backyard

I took a photo of the blue sky from the backyard today (we’re fully into grey sky season, it was unexpected) and then it was so nice outside tonight that I went out to take a picture again. I tried to have it framed the same way, but I’m an imperfect human.

Auto-generated description: A clear blue sky with scattered clouds is framed by tall evergreen trees and the corner of a house roof. Auto-generated description: A moonlit night sky is partially obscured by scattered clouds and framed by silhouetted trees.

While I was out there tonight, there was an unnerving screech in the trees overhead. Merlin didn’t recognize what it was so I sent the audio clip to my sister and her boyfriend (professional birders, both of them) and even they couldn’t agree. They sent me back outside to play the different songs to see if I got a response. The idea of calling an unknown screeching thing to me in the dark is uncomfortable.

I’m fairly convinced it was a barred owl even though nothing came to attack me.

(Please ignore the plants growing in the gutter. It wasn’t that long ago that they got cleaned, but we’re due again.)

Unanswered Questions

Watched: Springsteen: Deliver Me from Nowhere ๐Ÿฟ

I enjoyed this movie. Jeremy Allen White is amazing. Jeremy Strong is too. This made me wish I could talk to my dad though. One morning in the eighties over breakfast my dad mentioned that he had had dinner with Bruce Springsteen the night before and yet it was halfway through dinner before my dad realized who he was! My dad was a proud member of the IATSE union for a LONG time and I assume that he had helped with spotlights at a Springsteen show and somehow dinner was involved in that?! I wish I could ask!

How do you tell people about open platforms?

I was on a Zoom call last night with a bunch of women. The majority of them are at/near retirement age and many of them have YouTube channels with hundreds or maybe even thousands of followers. Most of them also have huge numbers of Instagram followers. The topic of social media came up and someone said “I don’t know what Threads is.” The only response she got was, “It’s Facebook’s answer to Twitter.” I took myself off mute as I tried to think of how to say something about the Fediverse or the Open Web in a way that would land with that audience. The conversation moved on to the difficulty of blocking assholes and trolls if you have an audience of any size before I made up my mind so I just muted myself again.

This seems like a problem.

I would have been really surprised if anyone there mentioned Mastodon, but I was hopeful Bluesky would come up. It did not. Someone did mention not wanting to support Facebook/Meta at all.